The Quiet Tension Around Being Seen
Hesitation isn’t always a mindset problem. Sometimes it’s a body-protection reflex.
You’re looking at the post.
It’s ready enough.
But your chest tightens anyway.
Your throat gets narrow.
Your finger hovers like “publish” is a threat.
Then your mind tries to save face: Maybe I should refine it.
But the delay didn’t start in your mind.
It started in your body.
What that tension is really saying
Sometimes hesitation is not laziness.
It’s protection.
If you grew up in environments where being seen came with consequences—critique, control, shame, punishment—your system learns a rule:
Visibility = risk.
So now, even when you’re safe, your body still braces like you aren’t.
A quick story
I know this feeling in my bones.
As a kid, my father used to called me up to sing before he preached.
But my body didn’t hear “come sing.”
My body heard: stand up and be evaluated.
So I’d slide under the pew.
Not dramatic—automatic.
A reflex.
My stomach would drop.
My throat would lock.
My skin would feel too visible.
And what people think is happening in that moment is shyness.
Or attitude.
Or fear of performing.
But what was happening was deeper:
I wasn’t scared of singing.
I was bracing for what came with being seen—
the scrutiny, the correction, the spiritual pressure, the feeling that one misstep could turn into a lesson.
What that did to my nervous system
That moment taught my body a rule before I had words:
Visibility invites control.
Being witnessed can become punishment.
Expression can be used against you.
So years later, when I’m grown, accomplished, capable—and I’m about to share something I wrote?
My body doesn’t check my résumé.
It checks my memory.
It goes: Is this one of those moments where we get exposed?
And then the hesitation shows up.
Not as a thought first.
As a tightening.
Untrapped Truth
Your hesitation might be a flashback in the form of tension.
So when you’re hovering over “publish” and you can’t move, it’s not always a mindset issue. Sometimes it’s your nervous system saying, we learned this costs us.
And the work is not forcing yourself through it.
It’s learning how to let your body update the rule.
When you’re about to share your work—post, speak, teach—what does your body do first?



Interesting and I think this is a very common problem. Great share!